knock knock

Back in my room,

Sick this time, my throad it aching, and i started anti biotics. that's good in one hand, cause i can't wait to get well on my own, i prefer waiting the medicie to take over....

anyway nothing special to contemplate today, i just have the time to be lazy, i could use my time more productive
but i don't...
it's interesting that i don't... anyway

funnily my days envolve good i can't dismiss hat fact, thank god, but the tendency to see it on the black side is here..

one think i am trying to change with my self is stop being pesimistic, but in the bad way, expecting only the worse to happen. i noticed that i want to be miserable cause i think people will like me out of pity, tha'ts my way to attract people out of pity

pathetic it is, but i did so, i try not to now, i still have wrok to do to get rid off this attitute.

i won't say no more actually, i will keep it positive...

adam