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Hmm i am wondering what to start with...
maybe i did it again.... I now believe, it's not me , it's my luck... once again i like a guy in a relationship... now i don't find sexy the idea of someone being in a relationship.. it just happens.. funnily began cause i tend to know he has a big dick, something i appreciate to be honest... unfortunately i found out on the way he is into a relationship... along with this, i found out how many interest he has.. and attracts more and more my interest...
doesn't make me feel happy ... well unconsciously i try to ignore it, and flirt him but well at the same time i don't say a thing.... it's cool.. there is a hope.. futile but there is.. makes the days passing less boring... but brings some sorrow cause i can't notice or stop reminding me the inappropriate situation i am getting in...
and righ before i met an other guy, just for 3 hours, they were enought to like him very much.. he left with an other gay friend and then he left the island permenately.. well i hope that will stop happening again and again...
The interesting outcome is i feel like wanted to do nothing and met none.. not that will happen exacly like that.. but it's cool, i can relax a bit and not expecting something to happen for a while.. and have the freedom to deplore my bad luck... the prob is i still hope for that guy..
pathetic? maybe it is, a mistake i must do.. and educate from
what shocked me is the tragendy in norway... human is man's greatest enemy not very precise story.. but this song came to my mind... hope this mixture of hate and sorrow doesn't combine again.. but this hope sounds futile as well.
I don't like it to close this post sounding so dramatic, i am in good state to be honest.. i loose my balance lately, a lot of homework and the stress is puliing me back to misery state.. plus i have some tiny problems with a friend... i just need more time but i am all right...
I started harry potter audiobooks..(no time for the proper books) it calms me down...
that's all, simple & daily as it should be
Adam
Hmm i am wondering what to start with...
maybe i did it again.... I now believe, it's not me , it's my luck... once again i like a guy in a relationship... now i don't find sexy the idea of someone being in a relationship.. it just happens.. funnily began cause i tend to know he has a big dick, something i appreciate to be honest... unfortunately i found out on the way he is into a relationship... along with this, i found out how many interest he has.. and attracts more and more my interest...
doesn't make me feel happy ... well unconsciously i try to ignore it, and flirt him but well at the same time i don't say a thing.... it's cool.. there is a hope.. futile but there is.. makes the days passing less boring... but brings some sorrow cause i can't notice or stop reminding me the inappropriate situation i am getting in...
and righ before i met an other guy, just for 3 hours, they were enought to like him very much.. he left with an other gay friend and then he left the island permenately.. well i hope that will stop happening again and again...
The interesting outcome is i feel like wanted to do nothing and met none.. not that will happen exacly like that.. but it's cool, i can relax a bit and not expecting something to happen for a while.. and have the freedom to deplore my bad luck... the prob is i still hope for that guy..
pathetic? maybe it is, a mistake i must do.. and educate from
what shocked me is the tragendy in norway... human is man's greatest enemy not very precise story.. but this song came to my mind... hope this mixture of hate and sorrow doesn't combine again.. but this hope sounds futile as well.
I don't like it to close this post sounding so dramatic, i am in good state to be honest.. i loose my balance lately, a lot of homework and the stress is puliing me back to misery state.. plus i have some tiny problems with a friend... i just need more time but i am all right...
I started harry potter audiobooks..(no time for the proper books) it calms me down...
that's all, simple & daily as it should be
Adam
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